grasp

Trying to find the string attached to the end of the sentence I can't complete. Reach inside and feel around in the humid areas to find the voice that's hiding. Expression isn't easy when you can't hear and everyone stares into your soul trying to take your one square inch of space but I just keep pace with the tides as they flow...

If I knew how to grasp this I would move so fast that it slips away. Don't laugh because you're just as helpless moving in that same slow current when time becomes carbon...

I'm against everyone but I'm not strong enough and they aren't that perceptive - and we're living in a world where perception is everything. Is it wrong to stare with blank expression at pale white plaster? I can read the words it spells but they fall away...

On a careless phrase I hang for a moment... or was it a year? I can't remember it's too late, it passed already and it slips away...

missing persons

Where were you when I called your name?

I can remember when you made me. From a man to a boy to a child, crying your name. And it all comes down like rain in my mind. Swept away in tomorrow's day in the sunshine. But where were you when I called your name?

Now I am strong enough to sever you from me. Seizing my mind in nurturing fallacy. And it all comes down like rain in my mind. Swept away in tomorrow's day in the sunshine. Without you I'm still the same, because I'm fine. You will never forget my name.

diminishing returns

The innocence beguiling the child never leaves. It only changes to reveal every dark thing. A fear of the dark out shined by a fear of the future and it's enveloping everything and leaving us behind.

Did you believe in me? I said how much farther should I go? Did you believe in anything? This is so hard for me with my eyes closed. It is so hard to see this

Futility inside of me will keep me down. With my head on the ground I won't make a sound till I breathe. But everyone's still smiling? Well I guess they heard that ignorance is bliss.

Well I've traveled all these years, and now I'll find my way home.

I cant save the world, so ill drag it down with me. And they'll see and I hope you know I am no better than the rest of me. I can't change this world, for I am only me

If we can't be anywhere but where we are then why should we try to change it? Just accept your place, never show your face and in your little world it'll be just fine.

numb

You didn't have to lie to me when I asked you how you were. It burns out my eyes, will you pray for me? Find you inside you and feel me the real me just take you away.

Let me in. This is for you.

Saturate your dark places and behold the newer you. Ride atop your failing notions of that which liberates you too. Spread yourself and bleed, as I creep up beside you... feel me inside you... this dark thing that rides you.

You can't forgive yourself for this, clear your mind stains will wash away. This tragedy I can forget but in you it lives forever.

summer by twilight

Standing naked in the sun, granted strength for a new day. Quite unlike myself to pause for a while. Grisly imagery dissipates, fevered dreams can fade. Ponder a better place to be, please please god let me sleep for a while. Sunlight streaming through my window...kiss me before I fade.

And its the same sad song calling me home.

lifestream

You can see the sun kissing to the earth. Crimson skies and fields submerge me in color. Breath of the mother so warm its sanctuary. Life is always moving.

Standing from the shore the current calls you. Discard your petty reservations and go and plunge right in. Embryonic resolution amidst a calming sea, life is always moving and it carries me.

Endless yearning. Rising tide. Lucid dreaming. From inside.

Nothing can stand in its way. Nothing can slow it down.

images

i. creation

ii. evolution

I just found out where we belong and today we're gonna be there. Where no one says a single bad thing or for that matter anything at all. Who is left to mourn the life of a will that never was? If you're not missed while you are here, you won't be when you're gone.

So please don't cry. This time we can't take it back. I'm sick of this and I'm tired of everyone.

So we'll go down to the bridge nestled high atop the world and start over again. You and I... my little girl. And for the seconds that we're flying there don't open your eyes for you cannot see tomorrow.

So please don't cry. Everything is going somewhere. It's not the end when we die.

iii. ascension

For all the times that we have faced imperfection and
inadequacy, it has sneered a stale grimace
and promised only the finality of existence.
So if this is the last time.... I won't regret anything.

iv. departure

      Nothing is real.
           Believe the word.